When God Answers…Make Sure You’re Listening

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     Last month I wrote a post called ”When God Answers.” It was, in essence, about a question I had posed to God and how he answered it…or I thought he answered it. I was having second thoughts over a birth control implant, called Implanon, that I had gotten. After having a DVT in my tenth pregnancy and being on blood thinning injections throughout my entire eleventh pregnancy, my doctors sufficiently scared me into it.
     I prayed that God would give me a clear answer regarding whether I should have it removed. A week later, I went to the ER with pain in my right calf. There was no DVT there, just some superficial clots, but they did find a newly formed DVT behind my right knee…a place where I never experienced any pain.
     I took this as God’s answer to my prayers- I still do- but I know now that I was completely wrong in my interpretation of it. You see, I so wanted, out of fear, for His answer to be, ”Yes, Shelly, you did the right thing,” that I believe I took His response and conformed it to mean what I wanted it to. Here is what I assumed: God had led me to the hospital as soon as this clot had formed to save my life and to warn me that this is what would happen in any future pregnancies. I truly did believe that, so I was at peace with my decision.
     Until someone pointed out that one of the effects of Implanon is that it prevents implantation. I don’t know about you, but, to me, that’s abortion. I denied it at first. I told myself that the woman who told me this was misled, but I decided to research it anyway.
     Not only was she right, but a rare side effect of Implanon is blood clots! I got another DVT two months after I had it implanted! I told myself that this was God’s way of telling me that I did the right thing, but I now know that this blood clot was probably caused by the Implanon! That was my answer, and I got it completely wrong!
     To make matters worse, the reason I agreed to get this implant was because a. The doctor told me this would not increase my risk of blood clots and b. I had told my doctor that I didn’t want an IUD because they prevent implantation, and I’m pro-life (obviously, I have 11 kids), but she conveniently omitted the fact that Implanon does, too!
     I’m furious that my doctor lied to me and put something in my body that goes against everything I believe in, and I’m furious with myself for not seeing this situation clearly from the beginning. I guess discernment is something I still need to pray about.
     Next week, I have an appointment to have this thing removed. I was literally sick to my stomach when I found all this out and waiting this long makes it even worse. I’m not looking forward to going there because I know that my doctor is going to give me a hard time, and she will badger me about alternative methods. Suffice it to say, this will be my last appointment there.
     The point of this post is to plead with you to listen objectively and wholeheartedly when you’re waiting for an answer from God, and never, ever, assume your doctor will voluntarily give you information you haven’t specifically asked for. Unfortunately, we can’t even trust them anymore.
     On a final note, if you’ve decided to peruse my archives to read the original post, I’ve deleted it. I don’t want to mislead anyone else into thinking that this was God’s will for me. It was mine.

Have you ever misinterpreted God’s will, only to discover it later in a big way?

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Author: Shelly Sangrey

I'm Shelly, a Christ-following, homeschooling Mom of eleven children ( okay, not ALL children. My oldest is 23.) I met my husband right after graduation, and we've been together ever since. Though my life can be hectic at times... okay, ALL the time, I wouldn't change it for anything.

13 thoughts on “When God Answers…Make Sure You’re Listening”

  1. I hope everything will resolve after it’s removed. Dealing with all Bethany’s health issues has opened my eyes big time to what Doctors don’t tell you. I have learned to research everything before we do anything. And of course if she does have a reaction they never admit that it could be the medication.

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  2. I understand your frustration. My husband and I have been praying for God’s direction concerning some areas in our life. Isn’t it amazing how self justification can slip in there so easily regardless of how sincere we are? Regarding your birth control, have you looked into IUD’s? I was hesitant to go that route but I thought they all prevented implantation and not fertilization. However, the hormone induced IUD’s prevent fertilization. I would definitely research it, but for us I was relieved about the results.

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  3. I am so sorry for what you are going through with this. It’s definitely difficult to find God’s will, and our own thoughts and interpretations so easily get mixed in.
    I am going through something similar. I have some physical problems, too, and I’m so unsure about whether to be open to more children or not. I only have four, but I had them all in my 30s, in rapid succession, and it’s taken it’s toll on my body. I still have some quite irritating complications from the last one. And it’s so hard to know what God is really calling me to do. I have friends who are open to whatever God sends, and I admire that. But I don’t want to put my body into more problems if that’s not truly what God is calling me to do. It’s very difficult.
    I wish you all the best!

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  4. Back in the early 70′s when I was having children, after 2 children my husband decided he didn’t want anymore children. I used birth control pills and IUD while hoping he would change his mind. I suffered two miscarriages while on the pill and IUD. My husband still wanted no more children and expected me to have surgery to make myself permanently infertile.
    I was really saddened and didn’t want him to divorce me and leave my two children and I alone, so I complied. Went into deep depression and sought the Lord. I repented of what I’d done and asked the Lord’s forgiveness. I told him he could have my life from that point on. He has forgiven me and has given me children through my children’s spouses, grandchildren and great grandchildren. I also baby sat other women’s children while they worked. My home was never without some little child to love.
    Now I try to council my children and grandchildren to think long and hard about their decisions and try to get them to seek the Lord’s face before making those decisions.
    I too was lied to by doctors about the birth control pills and IUD. Didn’t have computers back then to research birth control so had to rely on doctors for the truth. I feel betrayed and cheated by them and don’t trust them much today. Have taken my health care into my own hands as I research the Internet for the truth. A good source is the Dr. Mercola Library, its free and available at Mercola.com
    Thank you for sharing.
    Anonymous.

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